The Believer’s Paradox

Arthur Pink, 1937

“Lord, I do believe! Help my unbelief!” (Mark 9:24). This was the honest confession of one whose faith had been put to a most severe test. It issued from a man who had a son possessed by a demon, which grievously tormented him, “Whenever it seizes him, it throws him to the ground. He foams at the mouth, gnashes his teeth and becomes rigid” (v. 18). What a sore trial was that for a tender parent! How thankful you should be, my reader, if in the sovereignty of God—you are blessed with normal and healthy children; and how sympathetic we should be toward those who have  afflicted ones! No doubt this man had consulted different physicians, and perhaps had conferred with his pastor; but no relief had been obtained. What a testing of his submission to the will of God! Then he sought aid from Christ’s disciples—but they had been unable to effect any cure, and “hope deferred makes the heart sick.”

Such, in brief,  is the background of our text.   And now the great Physician commanded that the tormented one should be  brought to Him—but we read “When the spirit saw Jesus, it immediately threw the boy  into a convulsion. He fell to the ground and rolled around, foaming at the mouth” (v.  20). Yes, matters generally seem to get worse with us when the Lord begins to take us  in hand—to demonstrate that our extremity is God’s opportunity to manifest His  sufficiency. It was thus with the afflicted Hebrews in Egypt. The darkest hour precedes  the dawn.   But what a tremendous testing of this man’s faith to behold his poor son foaming  in agony at the Savior’s feet! “Jesus asked the boy’s father, “How long has he been like  this?” “From childhood,” he answered. “It has often thrown him into fire or water to  kill him. But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.” (vv. 21, 22). Did the  Lord Jesus indignantly rebuke him for questioning His power, and turn away in  disgust? No, for “great is His mercy.” Instead, He answered, “If you can believe, all  things are possible to him that believes” (v. 23), and we are told “Immediately the  father of the boy cried out—I do believe! Help my unbelief.”

How paradoxical was this language, for it was almost, if not quite, a contradiction  in terms. If this man was a genuine believer, then why should he bemoan his unbelief?  Or, since he bemoaned his unbelief, with what propriety could he claim to be a  believer? It is like a man saying, I am hot—help my shivering coldness; I am strong— help my tottering weakness; for faith and unbelief are opposites.   Ah there are many paradoxes in the Christian life, which are quite unintelligible to  the wise of this world. That man has to become a fool in order to be wise (1 Corinthians 3:18),  that he has to become a pauper in order to be made rich (Matthew 5:3), that he has to be  made weak in order to become strong (2 Corinthians 12:10), are enigmas that proud  philosophers cannot elucidate.

But thank God, what remains mysterious to the wise  and prudent among men—is revealed to those who are babes in His family.   Unbelief is part of the entail of the Fall. By nature all of us are “children in whom  is no faith” (Deuteronomy 32:20). Frightful thing is that! To have a heart which distrusts God;  to have a heart which is ever prone to lean upon anyone and anything rather than upon  the Lord Himself; to forsake the Fountain, and betake ourselves to “cisterns which  hold no water.” Such is fallen man. Plenty of faith in himself, faith in his fellows, until  he is disillusioned and disappointed; but no faith in God. That it is which explains why  Christ is “despised an rejected by men,” so that in the days of His flesh He cried “O  faithless and perverse generation, how long shall I be with you!” (Matthew 17:17). This it is  which accounts for the universal attitude of men toward both the Law and the Gospel— they do not believe the Author and Giver of them, they are destitute of faith in Him;  and thus they will continue all their days—unless the Holy Spirit sovereignly  intervenes and performs a miracle of grace in their hearts.   Unbelief remains in the hearts even of the regenerate. Though God imparts to them the gift of faith, he does not remove (in this life) the root of unbelief. The Heroes of Faith, whose portraits hang upon the walls of fame in Hebrews 11:1-40, experienced that solemn fact. Look at Abraham, the father of all those who believe—when famine arose in Canaan he went down to Egypt for support, and so afraid was he to trust his wife in the hands of God, he told a lie by saying she was his sister. Look at Moses; afraid to return to Egypt and confront Pharaoh after Jehovah had appeared to him at the burning bush and had promised the deliverance of His people (Exodus 3:1-22); and later, complaining to Him, because he had so evilly dealt with Israel (Exodus 5:22, Exodus 5:23).

Look at David, the slayer of Goliath—yet saying in his heart “I shall now perish one day  by the hand of Saul” (1 Samuel 27:1). Look at the once intrepid Elijah, fleeing in terror from  Jezebel. Ah, my reader, the Holy Spirit has delineated the characters of the saints in  the colors of truth and reality; not as they ought to have been—but as they actually  were.   Unbelief is the great burden of the saint. It grieves his soul—the man in our text wept over it—do you? Gladly would the Christian be freed from this plague—but the Lord does not see fit to remove it in this life. Frequently it acts like a cloud that covers the sun, for there is nothing so effectual as unbelief in hiding from us the light of God’s  countenance.   Unbelief fetters our spiritual movements and impedes our progress. There are  times when the believer fears that his unbelief will utterly sink him. Yet painful though this experience be, it is nevertheless a most hopeful and encouraging sign. It is not until God has communicated faith—that any soul is conscious of its unbelief! A living faith is necessary in order to recognize our dead unbelief! There must be Divine light to see its existence, and Divine light to feel its power. Here, then, is solid comfort for those who are groaning over this burden—in your unregenerate days you were never exercised  over your unbelief!

To genuinely mourn for our wicked unbelief is a sure evidence that  Divine life is present in the soul. Those who are strangers to God, certainly do not  make conscience of such matters; how can they—when they are quite unconscious of  the plague of their hearts! But the Christian is not only conscious of unbelief, he goes to  God and makes humble and contrite confession of the same. Yes, it is a sense of this  grievous burden which drives him to the great Physician, crying, “Lord, I do believe!  Help my unbelief!” A true Christian does not cloak or excuse his unbelief—but honestly  acknowledges it before God. Nor does he sit still and pity himself as one who is totally  impotent and without any responsibility in the matter. No, he genuinely seeks “help,”  which clearly denotes he is resisting this enemy—but needs Divine assistance. True,  without Christ he can do nothing (Joh_15:5)—but he can do all things by Christ  strengthening him (Php_4:13).   Here, then, is the solution to the difficulty and the explanation of the paradox  presented by the language in our text. There are two distinct and totally different  principles or “natures” indwelling the saint—faith and unbelief, and there is a continual  opposition between them. They issue from the “spirit” and the “flesh,” concerning  which we read, “For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the  Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that  you do not do what you want” (Gal_5:17). It is this unceasing warfare between the two  antagonistic principles that give rise to a dual experience—one moment trusting God,  the next doubting Him; one moment resting upon and drawing comfort from His  promises, the next having no confidence in the same. And this dual and distressing  experience, moves him to cry “Lord, I do believe! Help my unbelief!”

Ah, my reader, if  you are not plagued with and burdened by unbelief, if you do not humbly confess the  same to God and seek His help about it—then are you of all men most miserable.   Contrariwise, as we have already said, here is that which provides real comfort for  the conscience-distressed and Satan-harassed soul. How often the Devil will tell a  Christian, “Your profession is an empty one—you do not belong to the Household of  Faith—how can you, when filled with unbelief!?” Listen, dear friend—the man in our  text was a genuine believer—yet he owned his unbelief; and that is recorded for our  instruction and comfort.   This internal warfare, is one of the plainest possible proofs that we are believers.  No unbeliever ever shed tears over his unbelief; no empty professor ever groaned  because of his questioning of God; no hypocrite is burdened by his doubts and fears.  No! Such are filled with carnal confidence and fleshly assurance—they have not had a  doubt about their salvation for years past; they can exercise faith any time, as easily as  you can turn a tap and make the water come; but such is not the faith of God’s elect.   “Lord, I do believe! Help my unbelief!” There are four things here claiming our  attention.   First, the Paradox presented—this, together with its solution, we have considered  above.   Second, a Fact affirmed, “Lord, I believe.”   Third, a Request offered, “help.”   Fourth, a Confession made, “my unbelief.”   As it is often helpful to depart from the arrangement of a text, we will do so here,  and take up its several clauses in their inverse order, looking at this man’s confession,  then his petition for help, and then the plea by which he supported his request, “I  believe.”   The Confession made, “my unbelief.” We will, very briefly, observe four things in  connection with the same.   First, it was an honest confession.

This is the first thing that God requires from  any praying soul—sincerity, genuineness, reality. He is not to be imposed upon by cant,  nor will the mere uttering of words, however scriptural, gain His ear. Then be frank  and artless in all your dealings with God, and never pretend to be what you are not—to  the very end of your earthly pilgrimage. You will always be (in yourself) a vile sinner,  unworthy of the least of His mercies. This man did not claim to possess a faith that  never wavered, or boast that he was free from doubts and fears. No, he honestly  acknowledged that the sum of his faith was frequently eclipsed by the dark clouds of  unbelief. O to be delivered from all insincerity when approaching the Throne of Grace!   Second, his confession was a humble one. That is the next thing which God  requires from the praying soul—that he strip himself of the rags of self-righteousness  and come before Him as one who is sinful and needy.

This is very evident from the  Epistle to the Laodiceans—they refused to abase themselves and take their proper  place before the Lord. His charge was, “You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and  do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind  and naked!” (Rev_3:17). Alas, to how many professing Christians do those solemn  words apply today! To all such Christ says, “I counsel you to buy from me gold refined  in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your  shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see” (v. 18). It is just at  this very point, that the Christian is distinguished from the hypocrite—the former  humbles himself and takes his place before God in the dust, acknowledging his wicked  unbelief.   Third, his confession was a feeling one, and this is the next thing which God  requires from each praying soul, for He desires “truth (reality) in the inward parts”  (Psa_51:6). It is not merely pious expressions—but a real sense of need in the soul,  which constitutes the essence of prayer.

I might as well kneel down and worship gods  of stone—as offer to the living God a prayer of words alone! That the confession of our  text was a feeling one, is evidenced by the fact that it was accompanied by tears. If the  writer may be permitted to speak for his readers, Is it not at this point that we so often  fail the worst, especially in the confessing of our sins.

Alas, how little are our hearts  affected by them—how mechanical and impenitent are the owning of our faults. Lord,  melt our hard hearts!   Fourth, it was a representative confession, by which we mean it was suited to the  case of all God’s children. There will never come a time in this world when such  language is unfitted even for those who are members of the Household of Faith. No  matter how much God is graciously pleased to increase our faith, indwelling unbelief  will still be present to struggle against it. It is just this element which renders the  prayers of Scripture so pertinent to the saints of all ages—they exactly suit their case  and express their sentiments. “As in water face answers to face, so the heart of man to  man” (Proverbs 27:19).

Let us consider next his Petition, for there is much in the details of this incident  which affords us valuable instruction on the subject of prayer, “help, Lord.”   First, look again at the occasion of it. This was an overwhelming anxiety over his  afflicted son, finding relief in unburdening his heart to the Lord. And that is what all  real supplication is. There is far more genuine petitioning of God in seasons of  adversity—than during times of prosperity. That is the reason why many a grief-wrung  ejaculation, or an inarticulate groan reaches God’s ear—when many a nicely worded  and carnally-admired “prayer” never reaches any higher than the ceiling of the room.  Read through Psalm 107:1-43 and observe the repeated “Then”! When there is a real  sense of need, a burdened soul requires no external “helps” as to what to say and how  to say it; a cry spontaneously emanates from the stricken soul—and wings its way to  Heaven!   But there was something more than the pitiful state of his son which prompted  this petition—the father was conscious that his own unbelief was hindering the desired  blessing (or why did he cry out for “help” against it), and that was unbearable.

If you  had to carry a basket containing some articles which weighed only a few ounces, you  would never think of asking someone for a helping hand; but if you were staggering  along with a load that weighed twenty or thirty pounds, you would beg assistance— unless you were too proud and independent to seek it. And so it is in heart matters— the more we make conscience of the thoughts and intents of the same, the more we are  exercised over that which is disorderly and God-dishonouring, and the more we grow in  grace, the more keenly we shall feel such irregularities.

Second, consider the spirituality of his plea. The more spiritual the soul becomes— the more spiritual are its petitions. It is a sure mark of spiritual immaturity when  relief from bodily ailments are more valued by us—than deliverance from moral  maladies; or when material mercies are prized above an increase of our graces. This  man did not cry out, “Lord, heal my son”—that had been natural; but “Lord, help my  unbelief!”—that was truly spiritual. The fact is that many of the most spiritual prayers  issue from those who regard themselves as being the least spiritual; yes, who seriously  doubt if they have any spirituality at all. Unspiritual souls never pray for help against  unbelief. It is much to be thankful for, when we are made painfully conscious of our  unbelief, for thousands of church-members never are so; and it is a still greater cause  for praise, when we are honestly burdened thereby, and moved to pray for deliverance.   Third, its meaning. This man recognized that the Lord was the only one who could  effectually aid him. Ah, it is a grand thing when we are brought to the point where we  realize that none but God Himself can subdue the workings of this evil in us! All self- help is vain; all fellow-creatures are powerless to render any relief—they cannot relieve  themselves, still less others. Then “Cast your burden upon the Lord—and He shall  sustain you” (Psa_55:22). This man definitely applied to Christ. It is indeed a blessed  thing when we are so oppressed by our unbelief that we betake ourselves to the great  Physician! So many groan under it—but do no more; others hug it to themselves, and  get no further.   “Lord, I believe! help my unbelief!”—put forth Your gracious power and subdue  this God-dishonouring spirit; enable me to strive against it; allow me not to excuse it, or  to pity myself for it and fatalistically yield to it; cause me to regard it as an evil to be  hated, an enemy to be resisted, a sin to be confessed.   Fourth, mark its comprehensiveness. His petition was exceeding brief—yet it  covered much ground. As faith is the root from which all good works proceed, so  unbelief is the source of all evil. This is our master sin, “the sin which does so easily  beset us” (Heb_12:1).

Unbelief is the cause of all our troubles and failures. This is the  strategic point where Satan concentrates his forces against us, and therefore it is here  above all that we need Divine help. “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!—Lord, I do  expect You to undertake for me—yet I am not able to exclude all doubting; I am  persuaded of Your power and pity—but enable me to rely upon You more fully and  constantly.   We turn now to the Plea which accompanied this prayer for help, for so we may  legitimately regard these words, “Lord, I believe.” His cry for Divine assistance,  accompanied by a humble confession, was made on this ground—because I believe,  Lord—take pity upon me and subdue my unbelief. To obtain the granting of our  petition—it must be backed up by some valid and suitable argument. Prayer is  something more than presenting a request to God; it is pleading with Him, presenting  some reason why He should grant that for which we ask. There are various pleas we  may make; such as, because I am in deep need of the same; because You have promised  to supply it; because it will be for Your glory to do so; for Christ’s sake. This is what the  Lord means when He says, “Produce your cause, says the Lord; bring forth your strong  reasons, says the King of Jacob” (Isa_41:21).   First, then, this plea was a necessary one, for God will not hear an unbeliever. “But  without faith it is impossible to please Him—for he who comes to God must believe  that He is, and that He is a Rewarder of those who diligently seek Him” (Heb_11:6).  “Lord, I believe,” not as I would do, nor as I should do; yet I deny not Your existence, I  question not the verity of Your Word, I am persuaded You cannot lie, I doubt not Your  power, Your goodness, Your mercy. I believe, though feebly, haltingly, spasmodically. I  appeal to You, O Searcher of hearts—You see the little spark of fire beneath the  smouldering flax, the flicker of faith behind the clouds of unbelief.   Ah, is it not at this point we so often fail—when presenting our petitions we must  accompany them with suitable pleas, for then God sees we are in earnest. Study  carefully Christ’s prayer in Joh_17:1-26 and observe how each request is supported by a  reason or plea—either before or after, in the words “that,” “for,” etc.

Second, it is an instructive plea. What valuable teaching is there here, for those  who desire to pray aright! In our ignorance and foolishness, we had probably concluded  that such a prayer as this man made, was unsuitable and unseemly—a contradiction in  terms.   It is recorded for our learning. One great lesson it inculcates is that we ought never  to look on our graces without also viewing our infirmities; nor should we confess our  sins without also owning the Spirit’s fruit in us. For example, if I am made sensible of  my deep need of more humility, when asking God for the same, I should acknowledge  my pride; contrariwise, when confessing my pride, I should thank God for humbling my  heart to do so. If I am begging for more patience and submission, I must confess my self-will and fractiousness; yet also thank God for making me feel my need of the opposites.   Third, it was an acceptable plea. God is pleased when His people own their relationship to Him, pleading that they are His children, and acknowledging the Spirit’s work within. It is a false and reprehensible humility which refuses so to do. Observe the example of David, “O my God, I trust in You—let not my enemies triumph over me”  (Psa_25:2); “In You, O Lord, do I put my trust; let me never be ashamed—deliver me in  Your righteousness” (Psa_31:1); “Preserve my soul; for I am holy—O You my God, save  Your servant who trusts in You” (Psa_86:2). Observe how Asaph pleaded with God the relationship which Israel sustained to Him, “Remember Your congregation, which You  have purchased of old” (Psa_74:2).

This is the very ground taken by our great High  Priest when interceding for His people, “I pray for them—I pray not for the world—but  for those who You have given Me; for they are Yours” (Joh_17:9). We, then, shall pray acceptably if we plead “Lord, I am Yours, undertake for me; I am a believer, subdue my  unbelief!”   Fourth, it was a prevailing plea. Of course it was—had not Christ said, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” This dear man’s petition gained the day—the Lord undertook for him, and his poor son was made whole. When we  really believe, the battle is half, nay nine-tenths, won. It all turns upon that—it is the  prayer of faith—which gains the ear and moves the hand of God. Hence, when we read  of Abraham that “he staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was  strong in faith, giving glory to God” (Rom_4:20), we should cry “Lord, I believe; help  my unbelief.” As we read, “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to  all liberally, and upbraids not; and it shall be given him” (Jam_1:5), we should cry  “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief,” for it is written, “but let him ask in faith nothing  wavering.”   We may apply our text to those seeking salvation. There may be a reader of this  article who is halting between two opinions. He is convinced that Christ alone can meet  his needs and satisfy his soul—yet he finds it so hard to give up the world and abandon  his idols. He knows full well that in Christ alone is eternal life to be found—yet Satan  still has such a hold upon him that he cannot surrender to the Lord Jesus and forsake  the pleasures of sin. Then come to Him and say, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.” Or,  it may be, he feels himself to be such a godless wretch, that he fears his case is  hopeless—having sinned so grievously against light and privileges, he dares not venture  upon the Gospel promises. Come to Christ and cry from the heart, “Lord I believe; help  my unbelief!”

Our text may be applied unto God’s providences. The Christian can say “the Lord is  my shepherd—I shall not want” (Psa_23:1)—yet when circumstances seem to be all  against him, he is unable to appropriate the blessed truth that God shall supply all his  needs (Php_4:19). Fearful that he shall come to abject destitution, he is unable to fully trust the Lord. Then come to Christ and say, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.” Many  a one can say—I am sure that “all things work together for good to those who love God,  to those who are the called according to His purpose” (Rom_8:28) means what it says.  Yet there are some things in his circumstances which he finds exceedingly difficult to  believe will issue in real good for him. Instead of submitting to God’s disposing will, he  is often full of rebellion; instead of kissing the rod, he finds himself kicking against it.  Then come to Christ and say, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.”

Our text may be applied to personal assurance. How many a Satan-harassed believer is exclaiming, I greatly fear that I cannot be among the saved, for if I were, I  surely would not sin as I do. In view of the raging of my lusts, the frequency of which they overcome my every effort to resist them, it would be presumptuous to affirm that the reigning power of sin was dethroned within me. My friend, David cried “iniquities prevail against me” (Psa_65:3). But you say, My heart is such a sink of iniquity, I dare not claim to be regenerated; often I do not loathe sin, nor even desire to. Ah—but it is not always thus—are not such seasons followed by contrition and confession!? Yes, you say—but right after I fall again into the mire, sometimes deeper than before; ah—but  do you stay there? Do you completely abandon the Throne of Grace? Does not a cry of distress go up from you to God? Then continue crying “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” May God add His blessing to this sermon for His name’s sake.

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